time and needs

I don’t know that I’ve ever dated anyone that wanted to please me this badly. It’s a welcome change. It makes me feel so wanted. I believe my self esteem has shot up 30 points since she’s become a regular part of my life. When we first started conversing, almost 8 months ago now, her eagerness was a turn off. She’s matured. Less eager. Speaks her mind more. Possibly boot camp has changed her. It’s helped her gain direction.

My ex used to always say that  relationships are about timing. I believe relationships are about personal needs. Right now, she’s giving me everything I need. Everything I crave. Earlier this year, I didn’t need what she was offering me. I wasn’t sure I wanted what she had to offer. Now…I’m happy to even have her as an option. We have tentative plans for her to visit in November. I’m looking forward to sharing some air with her. Cuddling. Getting to know her mannerisms, facial expressions, inhaling her scent. I told her that she was going to end up being my girl. She said, “I hope so.”

Den and I decided to just be friends. This is after a week of her being weird. With me getting more wrapped up in The Baby. More late night phone calls from Den, but only now they are going unanswered. She’s been texing me: Are you mad at me? or You haven’t said a word to me all day or Have you had sex? Yeah, it’s been ridiculous. The Guest is convinced that once I stop treating her in a romantic way she’ll start to gain more interest.

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